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tho I do have to wait until Monday for that last one. Doh!

Overall feeling okay. Yesterday I felt tired and nauseaus and ended up leaving work early. Had a slight temperature in the evening but not enough to have to go to get evaluated (thankfully). Today, I'm doing pretty well - no temperature, bit nauseaus but better than yesterday, and a bit fatigued but better than yesterday. Going to go for a walk in a little while - not sure how far I'll get, it's still kinda cold out today :) Hopefully I'll keep improving through the rest of th weekend and will feel pretty good next week.

Came home yesterday and got a care package from my sister M. Always a nice surprise.

--Dr. D

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One more down. Ran into Dr. M's nurse afterwards, she asked how I was doing, told her I was pushing through it. She told me that the side-effects of radiation generally peak and recede during the first 2 weeks after the final session - luckily I haven't been suffereing too much from side-effects from radiation (probably maksed by the side-effects from chemo) but I don't want to take anything for granted so I'll be prepared for it (e.g. - keep walking, be careful of spicy foods, etc).

Feeling kinda rough today but a pretty standard Thursday overall, bit of cramps being the worst of it so far today. Slept pretty well last night but I think fatigue is starting to catch up w/me again. Plan to take a long walk home tonite to fight it (but not too long - getting cold out). Lorraine is going to drop by this evening w/some chili (and a bit of company) for me - sure appreciate it on these kinds of days. I probably won't be very good company myself but it will be nice to have someone around for a while.

Can't wait for tomorrow - and another one down :)

--Dr. D

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So this morning, when taking my anti-nausea meds, I discovered that I'd forgotten to take my anti-naseua meds yesterday. Result - felt kinda nauseaus yesterday but slept quite well last night. Today, I took the meds but felt pretty nauseaus all day - think that's because I forgot the dose yesterday and it caught up - not something I'd expected. Still, not any worse than a standard Thursday or Friday so a bit of ginger ale (and ginger candy from chinatown) helped alleviate the problem. Still having the standard side-effects too - legs feel kinda like lead, hands shaking a bit, some difficulty concentrating and lack of appetite - but they're easier to deal with knowing it's the last time. Eating's the biggest problem - very easy to skip meals when you're not hungry at all but you ultimately feel worse for it - finally forced myself to eat some beefaroni tonight. I know what ur all thinking - ughh - but it has a good amount of calories in a relatively small amount of volume which is perfect for this kind of situation. Currently drinking some high-calorie cranberry spritzer, also good for this situation. My throat is getting a bit more sore now from the radiation, going to be a race between the number of treatments left and the effects on my throat - hopefully I won't have to go to pureed food but, even it I have to, it shouldn't be for too long and, if starts getting too uncomfortable, they have meds to help deal w/it.

Dr. I's office called this afternoon to schedule my appointment for next week - turns out it will be on Wednesday rather than Monday so I won't have much info from him until then. Plan to ask him about the effects of skipping the anti-nausea meds on Tuesday to see if he has any thoughts about it.

BTW - I've taken up the hobby of watching old music videos from the 80's on YouTube - if you haven't checked it out yet, I highly recommend it :) Well, youtube anyway, you can pick ur own kind of videos.

--Dr. D

4 Left

Radiation treatments, that is. Today's treatment was also delayed as two machines were down for the count - pretty unusual, I've only seen machines out-of-order due to scheduled maintenence up to this point but I guess they have to be pretty cautious when they're dealing with these types of machines (I know *I* want them to be cautious when they're aiming them things at *me*).

Afterwards, I went and got my head shaved again. It was really starting to look fuzzy. The hair is still thinner than usual and a little thicker around the ears so it looks a lot better now. It should start coming in a lot thicker and more even over the next couple of weeks given that I've finished chemo tho I haven't decided what I want to do w/it long-term - still kinda diggin the smooth, shiny look :)

When I spoke to Dr. M yesterday he told me that Friday would be his last day at MSKCC; he's moving to the medical center at the University of Chicago. Defititely a loss for MSKCC, I'm glad he was there for me. We discussed my surgeon, Dr. B, and he said that if he had esophageal cancer, he'd fly back from Chicago to be treated by him. Everyone says Dr. B's the best.

Finally, next Monday I am scheduled to meet w/Dr. I to discuss what's next in terms of scheduling evaluations and the surgery. Will keep you posted on that.

--Dr. D

Chemo Done!

Long day today (started at 9:15 and ended at 6:30) but I got radiation in the morning and (final) chemo in the afternoon. The day went long due to a number of delays - one of the radiation machines broke down which slows things quite a lot and then my chemo meds were ready by 2:30 but they weren't able to get me in until 4 due to a large backlog of people - both unusual occurences but I didn't care so much as I just wanted to get the treatments.

So my wbc count today was at 2700 - more than enough for chemo but still kinda low. The rest of this week is likely to be rough as it will be combined chemo and radiation but, as of next week, I should start getting stronger and feeling better. Can't wait for that :)

Keep sending the positive vibes,

--Dr. D

Treatment Schedule

When Dr. I cancelled my chemo last week, he also took me off of my radiation treatments. Both chemo and radiation can negatively affect your wbc count (chemo much more so than radiation for my particular treatments) and so they don't do either until your counts come back up. On Thursday, they started my radiation treatments again so I only missed 2 days last week (Tues & Wed). Overall, these kinds of minor delays in the treatment don't affect the efficacy of the treament or the number of treatments (for either chemo or radiation).

I'm scheduled to have my final chemo treatment tomorrow and, given how well I'm feeling, I'm pretty confident the my wbc count should be more than enough for me to receive it. As for radiation treatments, I've now had 22 and have 6 left to go. If all goes well, I should get 5 this week (i.e. m-f) and have my last one a week from tomorrow. This week is likely to be pretty rough but things should start improving thereafter.

I'm scheduled to go home for Christmas 3 weeks from today - here's crossing my fingers that all goes well and I can catch that flight.

--Dr. D